I don't even watch the show anymore, haven't done so in years, but feelings never die so,


Mood: crushedcrushed
01 February 2012 @ 01:40 pm

title: You Woke Me Up: Songs for John Watson
subject: Life with and without Sherlock Holmes. (And then with, once again.)
notes: 18 tracks. John POV. Sherlock/John relationship, with all its complexity. Spans from A Study in Pink to The Reichenbach Fall and beyond. Includes music by St. Vincient, Patrick Wolf, Wild Beasts, Electric President, and Andrew Bird, among others.

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comments are ♥!
Mood: goodgood
Music: "War," Official Sherlock Soundtrack, Series One
01 February 2012 @ 01:11 am
Okay, so you remember how I was absent from here for a year and then reappeared a couple weeks back saying that so much had changed in my life during that time? No? Well, I did. And now I'm gonna tell you what some of that "so much" was.

Last February, my mother had a moderate stroke. It didn't present like a typical stroke. It was a gradual progression of symptoms over a couple weeks time. Vision problems were the first to occur; her peripheral vision went to shit and she tore off the bumper to her car backing out of the driveway. Then came the weakness on her left side. There were worries that it was a brain tumor in addition to the stroke, based on the history of her two lung cancers and the fact that the MRIs showed an area that looked rather mass-like for ~just a stroke. Luckily, it turned out to be ~just a stroke. Last spring there were many specialist appointments and tests, surgery to clear out her right carotid artery, a likely second stroke during surgery, intermittent spasms of her left arm (turned out to be seizures), a full-body seizure the week after surgery (during which I thought I was losing her and found out that I am an excellent person to have around during an emergency) and an ambulance and an ER visit, physical and hand therapy appointments, and my father being absolutely useless and as a result, me being her caregiver. It was a moderate stroke with few cognitive effects (she is more prone to crying now than she ever was before), but she is left handed and MAJORLY so. I had to help her do such things as fastening her bra.

Fast forward to now, almost exactly a year from when all this began. She still can't write. The less I think about her not being able to paint anymore, the better. I need to help her do her hair, and do most of the driving and errands, the making of her food. She has good days and bad days, and has been pretty weak for the last few days. But she is so much more stronger now than she was last spring and summer. And most importantly, SHE IS STILL HERE. That is what matters the most.

During all of this, there were some wonderful moments outside~, like:

  • spending time with some of my favorite people ♥ ♥ ♥ yournamehere121, zorabet, christig428, Kendra, Akemi, Kelsey, Jackie ♥ ♥ ♥

  • more than a few concerts: Soundgarden (!!!!!!), PRINCE, Neko Case & Calexico, Little Dragon (twice!), Patrick Wolf (with Calpurnia Addams, who I find so inspiring), Andrew Bird, Architecture in Helsinki, Yelle, Wild Beasts, Stars, Jack's Mannequin (twice with yournamehere121), New Pornographers

  • my first San Francisco Pride

  • my obsession with Sherlock (so. much. excellent. fic.) (here be my recs)

  • getting TWO tattoos: an art nouveau flower on my righter inner forearm and a Charles Rennie Mackintosh rose design on my right wrist

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  • my summer fling with X-Men: First Class fandom

  • adopting an adorable ginger tabby kitten named Mackintosh

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  • oh, and as of this December, I have my Master's in Experimental Psychology. FINALLY. :DDDDDD

2011 was the hardest year of my life so far. But it could have been so much worse. I am beyond thankful that it wasn't.

So, remember to always tell those who you care for how you feel because you never know what will happen tomorrow or even what will happen five minutes from now.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ to everyone reading this
Mood: hopefulhopeful
Music: "Off To The Races," Lana Del Rey
31 January 2012 @ 01:55 pm

Dark Paradise [Johnlock] from Kristie Lynn on Vimeo.

I have a fanmix to post in a little bit, and this song is on there in spirit.

(related: Lana Del Rey's Born To Die is so fucking good. Check it out if you haven't yet.)
Music: "Dark Paradise," Lana Del Rey
14 January 2012 @ 01:17 pm
It has been almost exactly a year since I last posted here, and so many things in my life have changed. I don't even know where to begin.

I still remain thoroughly obsessed with Sherlock, however, and I did want to say "hello" one last time before The Reichenbach Fall completely destroys my will to live come this Sunday.

Until then, watch and cry with me over this fanvid of perfection.

Mood: calmcalm
25 January 2011 @ 04:12 pm
I'm thoroughly obsessed with BBC's Sherlock. THOROUGHLY.
Mood: rejuvenatedrejuvenated
09 January 2011 @ 12:39 am
Um. Hi. I haven't posted since the day before my dad's lobectomy, October 19th. It went well, he's currently cancer-free, and absolutely nothing has changed. That last bit has been hard for me to deal with, but I'm better now.

On December 15th and 16th, I was very fortunate to go see Adam's last two shows of his 113-date world tour. I'd mentally set up as my "reward" for psychologically getting through this fall and they more than lived up to expectations. Amazing shows and his happiness, as always, was contagious. Here's video what had me gripping zorabet's hand and beaming so fucking hard.

Mood: goodgood
19 October 2010 @ 11:54 pm


My father's having a lobectomy tomorrow for his lung cancer. I would appreciate good thoughts being sent our way. <333
16 September 2010 @ 02:45 am

I swear to fuck... ♥__♥

And the moment at ~13:32 where Adam gets told~ by the sound guy for pouring the water over LP's still monitored-up head and the innocent~ way he throws back the bottle...a five-year-old's psyche in a twenty-eight-year-old's body, I swear.

And don't give a fuck, I'm going to miss LP.
Mood: gigglygiggly
08 September 2010 @ 04:18 pm
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Adam, you fucking tease, ajfdslajflaksjflajflsjdalff. Also, for ~some reason~ I'm now in the mood to read rimming-fic. Huh.
Mood: naughtynaughty